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jak is down for (re)construction

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Dear readers,

I am in a dark, dark, dark spot– hopefully the last of dark, before the light.

I feel SO angry.  I feel SO betrayed, SO used.

I don’t know how to explain it without risking alienating some of you, without risking losing your support.  Maybe I’ll be able to talk about it some when I get back.

But I’ve got to go away for a while.  Go away and see if I can get some of these festering inner wounds to heal.  Go away and hope that maybe others will forget, although I will probably always remember, and probably never EVER trust them again.

I know that I’m dealing with cPTSD.  I… don’t expect you to ever understand, unless you’re experiencing this, too.

This is an image I found by way of Google Image search– but it’s from a dear woman named Lilly (https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com) who I’ve talked to some. She is AWESOME. She knows this. She is one who has really helped me understand cPTSD; because she’s been there. I aspire to her courage, openness, and strength.

Goodbye for now, dear readers.  I hope to be back soon.  We’ll see.

Author: jaklumen

Wherever you see "jaklumen", that's me. The username is still unique as of 2016, so it's just me, and only me. It's the real me, because I'm bad at faking otherwise.

2 thoughts on “jak is down for (re)construction

  1. BIG HUGS to you Jak. Please take the time you need to heal, we will be here waiting. 🙂

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  2. I hope you feel better soon, good sir.

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