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jak is down for (re)construction

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Dear readers,

I am in a dark, dark, dark spot– hopefully the last of dark, before the light.

I feel SO angry.  I feel SO betrayed, SO used.

I don’t know how to explain it without risking alienating some of you, without risking losing your support.  Maybe I’ll be able to talk about it some when I get back.

But I’ve got to go away for a while.  Go away and see if I can get some of these festering inner wounds to heal.  Go away and hope that maybe others will forget, although I will probably always remember, and probably never EVER trust them again.

I know that I’m dealing with cPTSD.  I… don’t expect you to ever understand, unless you’re experiencing this, too.

This is an image I found by way of Google Image search– but it’s from a dear woman named Lilly (https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com) who I’ve talked to some. She is AWESOME. She knows this. She is one who has really helped me understand cPTSD; because she’s been there. I aspire to her courage, openness, and strength.

Goodbye for now, dear readers.  I hope to be back soon.  We’ll see.

Author: jaklumen

Wherever you see "jaklumen", that's me- the username is still unique as of the current year. Be aware that the facet you see, is only a small part of the me that is me.

2 thoughts on “jak is down for (re)construction

  1. BIG HUGS to you Jak. Please take the time you need to heal, we will be here waiting. 🙂

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  2. I hope you feel better soon, good sir.

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