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TToT: Seizing the Sword of Trauma and a path to healing

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I’ve shared this video before as a mashup, but I’m showing it again because I think the juxtaposition is important– the One Ring of Sauron is compared to the Autobot Matrix of Leadership.  On the one hand, Tolkien presents an artifact that is wrought of evil, and that will enslave all life in Middle Earth if it is not cast back from whence it came.  On the other hand, the Autobot Matrix is presented as a mantle of leadership, that when unlocked, “will light our darkest hour.”

How can this be?

I take inspiration from Angela Shelton, who compares trauma to a virtual sword, but through the process of healing, can be drawn out as strength and protection.

Image credit: angelashelton.com from “Be Your Own Hero: Healing Workbook” by Angela Shelton, with illustrations by James Murray

Her first workbook was aimed at women, but she found that men needed a resource, too.

Ever since I started speaking out about child sexual abuse, domestic violence and sexual assault, I’ve heard from male survivors right in line with the females.

That goes for perpetrators too. Males are not the only ones who harm adults and children. Women are perpetrators too, in sexual abuse and domestic violence. They can be very sick and twisted too!

Victims of abuse are just that – victims. Luckily, the ones I hear from are the victims who become survivors and then move from surviving to thriving.

Abuse is not a “Women’s Issue” it’s a People Problem!

YES!  Someone who gets it!

It’s not been easy, and it’s been terribly lonely.  Let me tell you again, dear readers:

The reason why I started blogging 10 years ago was so I could face the pain of the abuse my mother heaped on me as a child, and to deal with all the fallout that caused.

I wish I could say I found the answers sooner, but it has been a long, slow process.  It took me years just to figure out (and quite all by myself, unfortunately) why I was so angry.  It took me many years more to learn that what my mother did was NOT acceptable– people I realized I could trust told me so.

I am getting some wonderful help from some marvelous women I met on Twitter: Rachel Thompson, Bobbi Parish, and Athena Moberg.  I can’t remember all how it unfolded, but I found out about some wonderful resources they created and coordinate, and… wow.  I’ve been learning more things, more effective information, then I have ever learned so far in over 30 years of counseling/therapy.

Specifically, I started participating in a Twitter chat called #SexAbuseChat, which is a support chat for survivors of sexual abuse.  Then I was informed Athena and Bobbi were starting a Google Hangout for the No More Shame Project– a live stream of them discussing subjects from the chat.

Well, I said then some things I’ve said now– and I was deeply honored that Athena gave me a shoutout twice for it… but I want you to know, dear readers, that I don’t write this to brag, but just that I am SO grateful.  I was grateful to be receiving resources that FINALLY were helpful and useful– even if some of it were confirmations that I was doing some things right!  I am grateful to have my expressions of gratitude acknowledged, and to be one small example that the resources are doing good, and that they work.

Image credit: Athena Moberg and the No More Shame Project. One of the things these ladies really helped me to understand was how I was recycling through old cycles of trauma with triggers of new trauma, but more importantly, how I could begin to manage that cycle, to avoid and lessen that response. It fit very well with my other work in recovery.

A request, dear readers… please, I ask for your support.  I assure you that also I am starting to speak up, more men are silent.  I can think of at least one person who has said very little that I am aware of, and I won’t say who it is because, well, it was said in confidence, and it’s not my story to tell.

Will you support me, dear readers?  Will you support the wounded men in your lives, so that they may have peace, and stand for peace?  How will you spread the word?  Do you agree that abuse is not just a women’s issue, but a danger to all people, regardless of gender?

 

Author: jaklumen

Wherever you see "jaklumen", that's me. The username is still unique as of 2016, so it's just me, and only me. It's the real me, because I'm bad at faking otherwise.

3 thoughts on “TToT: Seizing the Sword of Trauma and a path to healing

  1. Yes! It is a people problem! Good for you for making progress and speaking up.

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