the tao of jaklumen

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Darkness and despair: Still in the Abyss

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I don’t like this.  My willpower is so drained, and my patience is razor-thin.  I felt that I had to bring someone up short today (because I felt they were un-empathetic), and declare a parting of ways… which I imagine will be met by protests to the contrary.

It’s not just the chronic pain… it’s that I’ve begun to open up to deep, ugly, inner emotional wounds.  Most here at WordPress have been INCREDIBLY supportive, and I guess I shouldn’t be too surprised by someone that seems to be wrapped in youthful idealism still.  But I don’t like it.  No, I do not want to be the grumpy grouch who says, “Shut up, you twentysomething little squirt!  You haven’t lived long enough to step to me like that, and try to teach me things I already have some experience with!”

Nope.  Although I want to remain kind, to move with wuwei… my verbal self-defense leaves so much to be desired.  I conceded defeat, and I let them have it, but still, with as much intellectual respect that I could muster.  I don’t think it was enough, however.  Not near enough.

 

 

Author: jaklumen

Wherever you see "jaklumen", that's me. The username is still unique as of 2016, so it's just me, and only me. It's the real me, because I'm bad at faking otherwise.

One thought on “Darkness and despair: Still in the Abyss

  1. Oh no! Sorry about that. That’s a lot of negative energy you do NOT need at this time. I hope you can release that energy and find your inner peace. 🙂

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