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Not out of the woods yet


Perhaps it was fortuitous that my last post was Surfer descends into The Abyss: Enter Thanos and the Infinity Gauntlet, where the man of Zenn-La faced his most challenging foe ever, and I said it was probably the strongest story where he faced death and the abyss in body and spirit.

It’s also not the first time I’ve said this chronic pain was like an abyss.  But now a doctor has echoed this sentiment:

People suffering from chronic pain are often angry. They are trapped not only by an unpleasant sensation, but also by their limited treatment options. The experience can lead to feeling not only like there is no end in sight, but also as through there is no hope. So strong are the associated emotions that I often call this state of mind “the abyss.”

Chronic pain and the effect on patients’ families



after (trial stimulator is OUT)

after (trial stimulator is OUT)

The trial stimulator is OUT, so I am waiting in agony to wait for the permanent version of the procedure.

Author: jaklumen

Wherever you see "jaklumen", that's me- the username is still unique as of the current year. Be aware that the facet you see, is only a small part of the me that is me.

6 thoughts on “Not out of the woods yet

  1. Angry? Ah…YEA, I’m angry!!! “The Abyss” is perfect! Praying that the permanent version is available ASAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🙂 🙂


  2. I do hope they help you soon. My experience is that pain is exhausting, depressing and life halting. It changes our personalities.


  3. For goodness sake! How long until the permanent one?


    • I honestly don’t know. I am waiting for the pre-authorization and other insurance hoops before I can even see the surgeon that would perform the permanent procedure.


  4. Thinking of you through this tough period, J.


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